They want to cling to a warped and twisted perception of me, because an exaggerated caricature is much more fun than a boring person with normal flaws. They want to maintain a mental image of me as a pathetic, whiny, cringey loser, because it facilitates their hobby of mocking and humiliating other people. They’re not interested in truth or reality just shame and ridicule. These people judge me exclusively on those 1% of regretful moments it validates what they want to believe. As a result, there have been times when I was be short-tempered and rude these moments account for less than 1% of my interactions with other people. I’m a human being with emotions, I’m frequently put into very unpleasant and stressful situations, and sometimes my judgement is clouded by frustration and anger. They judge me based on things that I said over a decade ago, and use ancient chat logs and out-of-context screenshots to convince themselves that I’m a cartoonish caricature of who I actually am. They get amusement from shaming and ridiculing people, so they choose to perceive me as a shameful, ridiculous person.
These people heard about me, and decided that I seemed like the type of person who would provide them with lots of entertainment. They’re not doing it for any noble reason they just enjoy the cruelty of it. They’ll go as deep as they possibly can into your personal life and look for absolutely any quote, screenshot, or chat log that can be used against you.
Humiliating their victims is like a recreational activity for them. Digging for dirt in other peoples’ lives is their favorite past-time. There are people in this world whose hobby is shaming and ridiculing other people. I was worried that one day, my new audience would learn about all the stupid cringey things I did in my youth, and turn on me just as the 4chan audience had. I continued developing Yandere Simulator, but the entire time, I was fearful that the past would repeat itself. The game got a new audience, and I got a fresh start.
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It was incredibly disheartening, especially when I had put so much effort into improving and rebuilding myself.Īround that point in time, Yandere Simulator was discovered by big YouTubers like Jacksepticeye, Markiplier, and PewDiePie. v/ no longer wished to support me or my project, even though I had spent months building a game for them. Instead of discussing game design, game mechanics, and gameplay, the threads became exclusively about ridiculing me for who I was in the past. Slowly, the focus of the threads stopped being about my current project, and started being about my former self.
But eventually, people realized that “YandereDev” was actually that cringey guy from back in 2009 who was always either whining or raging. For a few months, everything was wonderful – we were having fantastic threads and having a great time planning out every aspect of the game. Everyone who posted in the thread loved the idea of the game, so I began working on it. In 2013, I realized that I had acquired the skills necessary to independently develop video games, so I left my job to become an indie dev.Īround 2014, I pitched the idea for Yandere Simulator on 4chan’s “/v/”, a message board about video games. I got a job at a video game company, I made friends, I stopped basing my self-worth on my relationship status, and I did my best to drop all of the habits that I was ashamed of. I was immature, cringey, and embarrassing in just about every way imaginable.Īs I entered my mid-twenties, I realized that I wasn’t proud of any of my behavior, and did my best to change myself and turn my life around. When I streamed video games, I would often yell at my viewers and throw temper tantrums at games. I wrote a lot of whiny posts about feeling lonely, having no self-confidence, and worrying that I’d never have a girlfriend. When I was younger – in my late teens and early twenties – I did a lot of stupid and embarrassing things.
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